A New Beginning..

You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real, it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soulmate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.. 

The Alchemist~

"At that moment, it seemed to him that time stood still, and the Soul of the world surged within him. When he looked into her dark eyes, and saw that her lips were poised between a laugh and silence, he learned the most important part of the language that all the world spoke - the language that all the world spoke - the language that everyone on earth was capable of understanding in their heart. It was love...
Something older than humanity, more ancient than the desert. Something that exerted the same force whenever two pairs of eyes met, as had theirs here at the well.She smiled and that was  certainly an omen - the omen he had been awaiting without even knowing he was all his life. The omen he had sought to find with his sheep and his books, in the crystals and in the silence of the desert.

It was the pure Language of the world. It requires no explanation, just as the universe needs none as it travels through endless time. What the boy felt at that moment was that he was in the presence of the only woman in his life, and that, with no need for words, she recognized the same thing. He was more certain of it than of anything in the world..
 He had been told by his parents and grandparents that he must fall in love and really know a person before becoming committed. But maybe people who felt that way had never learned the universal language. Because, when you know that language, it's easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you, whether it's in the middle of the desert or in some great city. And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. 
--There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one's dreams would have no meaning."

Are you still holding on?

First Chill--then Stupor--then the Letting go---

There is a big difference between giving up and letting go.Giving up means selling yourself short.It means allowing fear and struggle to limit your opportunities and keep you stuck.

Letting go means freeing yourself from something that is no longer serving you.It means removing toxic people and belief systems from your life so that you can make room for relationships and ideas that are conducive to your well-being and happiness.

Giving up is self defeat.Letting go is Self-care.

So the next time you make the decision to release something or someone that is stifling your happiness and growth, and a person has the audacity to accuse you of giving up or being weak, remind yourself of the difference.
Remind yourself that you don't need anyone's permission or approval to live your life in the way that feels right.No one has the authority to tell you who to be or how to live.No one gets to decide what your life should look like or who should be a part of it.No one but YOU.

Unrequited Love..

"A mighty pain to love it is,
And 'tis a pain that pain to miss,
But of all pains,the greatest pain
It is to love, but to love in vain."

I had to get over him.For months now, a stone had been sitting on my heart.I'd shed a lot of tears over him,lost a lot of sleep,eaten a lot of cake batter.Somehow, I had to move on. Life would be hell if i didn't shake loose from the grip he had on my heart.I most definitely didn't want to keep feeling this way,alone in a love affair meant for two.
Even if I'd always thought we'd end up together.Even if he still had a choke chain on my heart... 

..that fortitude in her eyes

A girl deeply in love..

Happy a day in her imaginations and expectations
Flummoxed and hurt the next

Trying to catch the pinnacle of her happiness
But all she grabs is a sense of dubiousness

Lazy lying under the shade
Wandering from one thought to another
She still tries to gather her guts
Mystified by the puzzle of her love
I watch her gaze in the void..

Stammering to let her feelings out
Baffled about her own unspoken words of disgrace
I see her in dismay

Some think this  is a mistake again and all in vain
Don't they know??For her it's not!!
For there's nothing to lose by doing whatever you can
Than staying with regrets,she believes

And yet disappointments everyday
But  she is that girl who is still with all of it
Still with that fortitude in her eyes!

It happens like this..

One day you meet someone and for some inexplicable reason,you feel more connected to this stranger than anyone else--closer to them than your closest family.Perhaps this person carries within them an angel--one sent to you for some higher purpose.To teach you an important lesson or to keep you safe during a perilous time.What you must do is trust in them.Even if they come hand in hand with pain and suffering--the reason for their presence will become clear in due time.
Though here is a word of warning--you may grow to love this person but remember they are not yours to keep.Their purpose isn't to save you but to show you how to save yourself..and once this is fulfilled, the halo lifts and the angel leaves their body as the person exits your life.They will be a stranger to you once more.
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"It's so dark right now,I can't see any light around me.
That's because the light is coming from you.
You can't see it but everyone else can."

Vengeance

Your icy voice put out the stars..
it cracked my heart and broke it in splinters,,
your tone as cold as Colorado winters..
but I promise to soon forget
the contract we almost made...
you'll feel the swift response of an equal as the dream begins to fade
I'll drown you in pseudo kindness
and a casual friendly glance
I can almost imagine your blindness
as I watch and wait
for the chance
to suddenly- cruelly-make you know
how easy it was to let you go...